I believe that pity is not the appropriate response to my angry feelings towards priests. It seems right to recognize and have pity (or compassion) on all human beings in light of peril of we all experience. But, instinct is nature’s warning sign, that defies, or supercedes or (is a bit outside?) the realm of logic.

Anger is something we don’t reason our way into necessarily. We experience it when we feel threatened. Our physical response that is triggered can save us from harm. But, it can be like an ocean wave that can easily turn over my small vessel if I am not careful. Good grief, how does reason even function in the passion of anger?

So, the Rrrrrrrr I observed and wrote about earlier- is inherent in our beings- and is celebrated in the art of Delacroix. It’s the life force. Where does it come from? Anger, then, is a natural part of that force and part of the experience of being.

According to Chat, the Ai who I consulted to find if their was a relationship between mystery and mastery, said to me: “Some things are to be mastered and some things are to be experienced.” So!

It’s possible I ruin life’s experiences when I try to master them and subordinate them to my control. Maybe somethings I can just experience? If it sucks, I can just say to myself, or anyone who may be interested, the universe. “Hey, it’d be great if that guy knew what he was talking about about!”

I know, what I know, what I know to be true inside, there’s a guide in there, see? Priest or no, if you are not making sense, I don’t believe you. Here’s a little hint: if you want to tell us about Jesus, start with the letters in red.

Is anger to be experienced or mastered? What role does logic play in managing our emotions?

I am trying to experience anger. Then, in order for my head not to explode with frustration when people claim things about God that don’t make sense, I plan to make snarky, irreverent remarks. Because, seriously, Jesus is probably sitting on His throne saying, too: “Good grief, what is this guy talking about??” “I said the words in red. Red words!”