Copper Chronicles

What an odd phenomenon that the past several years I lived in an environment where I’d be abused most hostile-y for saying something outside the ‘controlled narrative’ of acceptable speech. It’s odd because Jesus says: You will be accountable for every word you speak.

Ok, Jesus, I get. It only took about 8 years to sink in, but I get it!

I wonder if writing words is the same as speaking them. My object of writing was to make sense of my existence, create some order out of chaos. And, I am discovering some order that pre-exists me, so that I don’t have create order myself. I can just align myself with what is true. Otherwise, I am toast. The world is fraught with danger for me.

I have to do inventory. This would have been great to know sooner. One doesn’t want to waste breath on speech that is not fruitful. This experience of living in a controlled environment certainly taught me how to choose my words carefully.

Words are powerful. They can hurt. Cause fear, pain. Confusion.

I need my existence to make sense and matter. Also, I would like to have some kind of orientation to the world that is not dominating (trying to control). But, I can not allow myself to be dominated either.

The world now is so full of words, people speaking constantly, I am going to need a filter. I don’t want to create fear, confusion, or pain, for example. Also, I’d like to avoid people who have no filter. So, that I am not absorbing verbal toxins.

Unguarded speech is like verbal toxins. That explains why we should be careful what we speak.

Aweomeness may be a poor word choice for the splendor of Virginia in spring. I tend to think when your gasping for air because you are unable to think or speak in the presence of such loveliness, one is in “awe”. I’ve heard man say that is the feeling he experienced when he first met the woman of his dreams. He was awkward and flabbergasted.

Not only are women generally lovely, but they hopefully cherish and value all that is good. So, that a man feels devoted to her kindness, objectivity. Contention, when necessary. And so thereby he derives benefit by enjoying the process of becoming his better self. It’s good to have reminders.

Beauty has that effect of transcendentalism. I see it, I stop breathing. And so- by lifting me out of discouragement or self-doubt- any disrespect, abandonment, or unkindness I am experiencing dissipates. It’s like looking in a mirror and seeing only love.

Beauty doesn’t mask pain like drugs or drive one to extremes ends to avoid emptiness or pain. The sublime realm of the natural world sees me just the way I am and loves me. Unless I am behaving like a beast. Then, it contends for my own good- because I am making ugly a world clearly meant to be beautiful.

So, that’s great. I don’t want to spoil the view!

I’m glad I discovered there is more to life than being an obedient, global consumer. Let’s face it, for all the bloviating speeches in Washington D.C., and all the fear mongering to enforce it’s agenda of global control, no one believes wars fought to ‘save democracy’ were about creating peace, stability, and prosperity for the citizens of those nations.

That’s because you’d have to have some experience at creating peace, prosperity, and stability at home, in order to perform that miracle elsewhere. Correct? We haven’t had those things for decades, at least as long as I have been alive.

We don’t have those elements so conducive to human happiness (which are leaders’ responsibility to achieve). But, we do have dozens of drugstores for every small town in America- and McDonald’s, Dollar General, and Walmart. And, we are fighting wars to secure cheap sh** from China virtually covers the globe!

The Television, which exists to sell us cheap sh** from China AND to flood our airwaves with pro ‘democracy’ this and pro-democracy that: says wars are for our ‘good.’ I guess if your making a fortune selling faux this and fake that, you want to cover the globe with it. But, is that what American people want? Or, any ordinary citizen of the globe?

State sponsored materialism: where citizens, work, eat, sleep. Shop on weekends. Repeat.

I confess, for all my effort to get free from the machine of state and shed my social conditioning, I went shopping at Walmart on my day off. Again.

It’ll be awesome once we get free from this mad, plastic distributing machine of state that Washington D.C. has become!

I enjoy how words have complex meanings. To understand accurately what is being said, I can look at root word meanings and original languages. For example, in the Hebrew language each root has a wheel out from which spokes of meaning emerge.

When the Quakers refused to fight in the Revolutionary war, citing the command: “Thou shalt not kill,” it’s possible they may have defended themselves more rigorously if they understood the several meanings of that root word interpreted “to kill.”

Shooting a horse who broke his leg and is unable to recover is ending a life. Defending oneself in an armed conflict may result in someone dying. But, our laws distinguish between self defense and murder.

Murder suggests intent to end a person’s life without any cause (like greed, ambition, or silencing witnesses.) These are causes but not legitimate ones (unless you’re a power hungry maniac hell- bent on global empire). Then, you believe you are all-powerful. And subject to no one.

According to that definition, you are “evil “. You know and are intimately acquainted with and are operating in concert with it. Then, the new President puts you in jail. And, with that malevolence, ambition, and greed removed from the helm of our nation, down comes the empire of insurance companies, drug companies, and associated media outlets and tech companies keeping your corrupt empire in tact.

That’ll be good because knowing Evil is exhausting. I can’t even by a 50 cent notebook without seeing this on the inside flap: For researching other nations: visit cia.org/archives or some such message.

Does the CIA now educate our children? I thought Microsoft and Google were bad enough.