This has been a harrowing 8 months. If I hadn’t mentioned it, my two clever hens urged on by their love of adventure managed to hover with helicopter-like vertical motion up onto their hutch and out into my yard. Hens don’t normally hover. The space was so narrow- something unusual is afoot! Anyhow, nature does not distinguish between birds for which I have great affection and birds that are just well, birds, if there is such a thing. Hawk did what Hawk does and Buffy’s days ended on the earth rather unceremoniously.
Lady called and called and called out when I finally found her after the event. She and I shared similar outrage. This is no country for hens, I said to myself. Lady agreed I could see in her hen indignation.
Unlike my experience with Copper, I did not feel overwhelmed by feelings of uncertainty and self-doubt. At the Vet Hospital in Deerfield when Copper died, I noticed people shared a similar experience of shame and regret. Somehow their animals’ suffering was their own fault, or was it?? “I should have done this, or this, or that. I did this and that and should not have done that other thing…” Same as I experienced.
The confusion is disorientating because, as I learned with Copper, you can try to do all the right things and sh** beyond your wildest imagining may occur. Copper may have been dehydrated in the hot weather which I did not prepare for (this effects egg laying). Was her suffering my fault? How do I know? How do I escape the feelings of regret and sorrow for things that are genuinely my fault?
Buffy died because she wanted to run around freely, and she managed to escape. How a fat hen hovers up a narrow passage onto the hutch and flies away is beyond my imagination. I feel badly but I am not having a existential crises now. But that doesn’t mean the existential questions about guilt and shame do not exist and need answering. There’s a high risk of becoming a sociopath, I noticed, if I cease to care about these things.
Sociopathy means lacking empathy among other things according to social scientists. Although I am certain psychology is lots of theorizing and wishful thinking muddled in with genuine understanding of what motivates human behavior and how to ‘fix’ it. The human being is not a biological machine that needs “tweaking” or “medication” to make them operate correctly. Or “social conditioning.” Are they?
My husband and I are currently imitating what happens when Elon Musk’s ‘brain chip’ device (also touted by Yuval Harari at Davos Meetings) mixes with twentieth century social engineering concepts. My husband is an engineer, he is good at acting like a robot. We look like “Rock ‘em Sock ‘em Robots.” One is saying: “Biden is doing a great job!!” The other is trying to say: “No, no… he’s not…Really. He really IS NOT!” (That robots conditioning is wearing off).
No, actually that is what is happening NOW in homes across America- BEFORE AI chip implants. After AI chip implants we won’t have to argue anymore or articulate positions on possible solutions to complex conundrums that human beings experience. We just obey our conditioning and hopefully the AI engineers only want what is best for us. Sort us like how right now people think Washington D.C. only wants what is best for us. Of course, people in power only want what is best for us.
“Good thing no one is planning AI conditioning for hens. They will be the only independent thinkers left on the planet,” my husband warns.
He is right. As is, this is no country for hens or human beings!